Recently I noticed some big shifts in my motivations and what I was prioritizing in life. I have decided to run with this and explore the idea of following a dream from my youth of being an author.
Why do I want to be a writer?
Flow and value. The occupation that I want is the one that gives me the most chance of flow and offering value to the world. What is my unique talent that I can build into a skillset and offer something truly unique to the world?
Web design certainly gets me into a flow state and this was the reason I created a web development business, but the pivots we made to serve the market demand made the business nothing at all to do with me getting into flow with web design, except me building the actual website for the business, which isn’t even that good anyway.
And in reality no matter how hard I tried I don’t think I could crack even the top 10% of web designers, and certainly couldn’t offer any value or anything memorable long term in the web design industry. At best it could be something to augment my true talent, web design could be a distracting activity that would be useful to distract and useful to get my true talent to the world. Ha ha, like this blog.
Ever since I started reading Henry Miller in my teenage years I could see myself as a writer. I loved HM’s use of language to spark the imagination and Ioved the idea of his romantic lifestyle. I didn’t think much of his poverty or unmanageability with money, but his sexual escapades and the characters he created, including his own, enthralled me.
Writing on and off over the years I have felt this flow, writing a book got me out of depression in 2009 and giving it to the woman I loved helped her choose me, at least for a little while. And I have always believed I have a strength in reading people that I have not quite tapped into, both perceptive and intuitive.
This is what I can bring to the world, my voice of the red pill awakening for men, tell the stories of inter-gender dynamics and give the lessons in a more creative and subtle way. Not a pua trainer, not a super deep philosophy, but a story-teller that will bring out peoples own awakenings.
What I need to do to remove myself even more from my businesses
Retail Businesses #1: Not much more to do here. It serves it’s purpose. I just need to get adwords finalized and make sure there are good processes to add new products.
Retail Businesses #2: This is also good, but as soon as I make 20k per year from writing I should sell this. There is not much more I can do to remove myself.
Web Development Agency: I am going to go with the theory that if we just keep getting new clients and doing good work with a consistent team then in time we will build a reputation and consistent cash flow. I want to have less of an active role. I want to resign and forfeit my salary, will be moving myself even further from the day to day affairs and have no contact with clients and just stay as a board member and shareholder. Partner #1 can become President, and partner #2 can stay CTO. They compliment each other well but will need to work closer together and communicate more often.
Currently I review blog post topics and copy, which I want to remove myself from. I suggest a Chief Content Officer and hand over the content strategy and not review any more content myself.
And I will remove my photo from the marketing so it is seen as more of a Philippine team.
Path to becoming a writer, finding my voice and building an audience
I feel I am writing too literal and too much in the first person, and I’m too self-obsessed. Good writers create characters and story arcs to express their views and beliefs in an entertaining and memorable story. The most sold PUA book “The Game” differs to a lot of the other “self-help” style books in this way.
I want to create stories with characters and a richness of creativity that has deep underlying messages and lessons unique to each person reading it – I am far from that. I need to finish my commitment to daygame and continue with my daygame blog. I will continue my in-field training and read and analyze sexual related topics and give myself permission to write crap as a learning experience for me, and anyone else going through the same “daygame” transformation.